I know, but please forgive me
I know that I’m not good, I want to be but I don’t know how
I know I argue when I should shut up
I know I can’t comfort you and be nice when I need to
But I’m scared
I know I need to be better, but how?
I know I ruined everything, and it’s all my fault
I know you’re gone
But I feel so lost
I don’t understand how to be what you want. I don’t understand how to be normal with you again. I don’t know how to be a friend to you, I don’t know how to get past the damage. I don’t know how to be miss perfect and instead I’m miss imperfect, the complete opposite of what you want, in every way.
But if I change, then what? I don’t think I can change anyway. It’s like, all I knew was erased and filled with, whatever this is and I don’t understand it. How to I fix myself? How can I fix us?
I know you love me.
But how long till you stop?
I know I’m horrible. But I’m trying to be better. I need you to forgive me
But that won’t happen, I’m sure of it
